Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep (Part 2)

All the events of our life are materials of which we can make what we will. ~ Novalis There are nightmares, and there are night terrors. And then there are night terrors on steroids. I experienced the latter daily from the time I was two or three until I was seven or so. Usually, we remember nightmares vividly, and we can be awakened, reassured that it was just a bad dream, and comforted. With night terrors, on the other hand, a child seems to have no recollection whatsoever of the horrors they experienced in their dream. There are good examples

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Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep (Part 1)

To endure is the first thing that a child ought to learn and that which he will have the most need to know. – Jean-Jacques Rousseau When the hideous, pint-size imps materialized out of the darkness, I froze. My heart skipped a beat as they drew nearer, relentless in their malicious intent. My first instinct was not to turn and run. (One should never turn their back on danger, unless they have eyes in the back of their head.) Instead, I stood defiantly, expectantly. Here we go again. For a long moment, I stopped breathing. Jaw clenched determinedly, I stared

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To Lose a Child

My teenage years were ideal, filled with wonderful memories and all the usual “firsts”:  first love, first kiss, first car, first job… The little girl who fought horrifying battles in her sleep each night (more on that later) had transformed into a young lady voted “First with a Smile” by her classmates. In 1984, I graduated from college with an AAS in Secretarial Science, landed the perfect job at one of the best places to work in my community, and married my high school sweetheart, all within the same year. We had three beautiful daughters right off the bat, our

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Divine Inspiration

This post will be short and sweet. 🙂 I woke up one night in the mid-1990s, and the words were right there in my head, as if divinely inspired. So, I sat in the dim light of the den, writing it all down as quickly and quietly as I could. Then I shuffled back to bed. It was effortless to write this little ditty I called The Eagle and the Dove, and it didn’t make a lot of sense at the time; but I truly understand it more and more with each passing year. It’s a tale about overcoming what

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The Lighter Side of Writing “Dark”

Call me whatever you like; I am who I must be.  ~ Friedrich Nietzsche I’ve never been a perfect writer. Far from it. I’ve never had legitimate training in the field. But I knew I loved the craft, and I loved being graded on essays in school. Even after my ninth-grade English teacher pointed out an embarrassing mistake I’d made in my essay about a jellyfish encounter, where I said I’d been stung by a dozen testicles, instead of tentacles, I still didn’t throw in the towel! I would write a book one day. I was sure of that. I

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Hello, Darkness…

Hello, Darkness, my old friend… Paul Simon began writing his iconic classic hit, The Sounds of Silence, the same year I was born, which is prophetically fitting. The opening lyric foreshadowed a theme I would experience throughout my life; indeed, a theme we all experience in various ways throughout our lives:  Darkness, as a familiar presence and occasional accomplice. After all, how can we appreciate what’s good, if we never have to face what’s bad? Darkness is as necessary to the human experience as the air we breathe. I’ve been blessed with much good in my life, but it’s the

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Why Scar(r)ed?

scar (noun) [1] a mark remaining (as on the skin) after injured tissue has healed [2] a mark left where something was previously attached :especially: a mark left on a stem or branch where a leaf or fruit has separated [3] a mark or indentation (as on furniture) resulting from damage or wear [4] a lasting moral or emotional injury (one of his men had been killed … in a manner that left a scar upon his mind— H. G. Wells) “Scar.” Merriam-Webster.com Dictionary, Merriam-Webster, https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/scar. Accessed 1 Feb. 2020. Welcome to my blog, where you’ll see ponderings not included in any of my books, yet. This is my

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